chinese new yr has lost its meanin. to me tat is. no more havin the thouts of dressin up and gamble and go house to house wit family to pay a visit. no more excitement. no more losin sleep on the eve. the only thing tat has meanin to me durin this festive is ang bao. lol.
problems hav resurface, all that has been struggling within seems to appear slowly, playin wit my mind, im feel lik i can no longer smile genuinely, no longer laugh lik the way i should, fake smiles. simply detests the me now. but wad can i do?
when i get to see wad happened today, it makes my heart cold, both are my beloved ones. wad can i do? i hav been wondering and tryin to feel wad my grandmommy is goin thru, all these yrs. i hav been wondering and tryin to figure why my grandaddy is doin this to her. im not gonna hate him but all that i hav for him seem to fade away slowly. i feel so much for my grandmommy now tat my heart goes all out for her. i will love her more,i promise. and hopefully its not as bad as i thout it will.
am bleedin, stop it.
unDieS feTisHist @|10:37:00 pm|
