Sunday, October 10, 2004
I'm ... I'm ...
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
I'm ...
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...
Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
But I'm leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
(Leaving) On a jet plane
unDieS feTisHist @|11:23:00 am|
Friday, October 08, 2004
in oh such good mood now (=
finally!finally i went for brazilian waxing...
all off...
but really v painful at da start lol...
i was lik"OUCH!"erm for lik 4 times at least
the gal was lik"u okay?"
i told her i started to sweat cos i got so tense up...
wad to do,first time...
didn noe how to handle da pain...
now,da feelin is so addictive...
we goin to club later!!
dor,greggy,petey and me...
petey bdae today...
guess wad i got fro da bottle shop??
shots...15% alcohol,
i reckon i gonna get furkin pissed bfore i go to club...
time to party and enjoy life,yes?
no use feelin sad for anythin anymore...
i learnt to care for just me,me and ONLY me...
ok la,and my family and friends (=
alrighty,time to doll up now...
love love kiss kiss...for all my cuties
unDieS feTisHist @|4:56:00 pm|
Thursday, October 07, 2004
this is somethin i would like to share...
i saw it on friendster(someone account)...dunnoe her but she is sooo sweet and pretty...
so i decided to copy and paste it here...
hope she dun mind (=
THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TELL A GUY
If you see me walking the road with someone
else It's not because I like his company
Its because you're not brave enough to walk
beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my
heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Because you're not there to catch me fall
If you feel lost, I am nowhere too
I also don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.
"HOW THE GUY REPLY"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk
beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty
that stands before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your
heartbeat I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already
grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere, I am lost too
I also don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
sweet,yes?
the way it is phrase is sorta wrong but who care,as long as its nice...
had a great time today...
went for a quick tan and went to suana with dor...
so shiok!!lol...
i starting to like cookin...
lik anyhow mix da sauces and da ingredients..
and da best part is,its edible!!and taste nice ok!
really,dun think i lied ok...
haha...seriously i noe everyone wil jus giv me tat "are u for real" look...
so meanie...but i hav confident tat i can cook betta as time goes...
nicko said tat he gonna cook for me when i'm bac...
so sweet...
well,da love he has for me is diff fro his love for amanda...
we are lik soulmates,frens for nearly 9 yrs?!or more...
he is one hell great guy...
very sensitive lik a gal (=
his thinking is really diff fro guys,not a bastard at all...
really hope amanda wil cherish him,lik i did,no stil do,yes?
his gf soon to be...
will love to meet up with her when i'm bac,pretty chick i must say (=
missh ya nicko...
holids ending soon,crappy!!
unDieS feTisHist @|11:35:00 am|
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
i hav a dream...
haha..dream for a long time...
to learn piano...yes...
all these while i'm jus usin my mouth,no action...
anyone noe why??
i mean why i wan to learn piano??
bcos i wan to play vanessa carlton,a thousand mile...
and sing da song...haha...
think whoever read this will jus go NOOOOO...
not again!*-_-''
especially amo they all...
i learnt salsa dance in ngee ann for stupid PE lesson..
i didn com on da day to choose the sport,
bloody hell i was sick ok!
and da next day i went to find tat furked up teacher,
hate him!he told me left only two choices...
then no choice but to choice salsa...
though i prefered tennis (=
i told amo they all i noe how to dance salsa,
they were lik show me,show me...
and i did!
they cracked up so badly and...
TADA,they named my dance "electrocuted dance"
and wheneve i sing songs,
their first reaction will be"eek,shut up!"
"yr singing sux"
tsk tsk,meanie meanie...
but i love them still...hee
missh my crazy days with them...
wait up,i'm comin bac *winkie
kenBO,hey cheerup ok...
wont pressurise u anymore...
stay stress-free...lol
erm,seriously wan to apologise to u for wad happened...
been actin lik some mad gal fro asylum...
well,wont happen again,yes... (=
unDieS feTisHist @|4:56:00 pm|
"Stay"
you say i only hear what i want to.
you say i talk so all the time so.
and i thought what i felt was simple,
and i thought that i don't belong,
and now that i am leaving,
now i know that i did something wrong 'cause i missed you.
yeah, i missed you.
and you say i only hear what i want to:
i don't listen hard,
i don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone, anywhere,
i don't understand if you really care,
i'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
so i turned the radio on, i turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
the lover's in love, and the other's run away,
the lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
well, this is not that:
i think that i'm throwing, but i'm thrown.
and i thought I'd live forever, but now i'm not so sure.
you try to tell me that i'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
you said that i was naive,
and i thought that i was strong.
i thought, "hey, i can leave, i can leave."
but now i know that i was wrong, 'cause i missed you.
you said, "you caught me 'cause you want me and one day you'll let me go."
"you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose.
and you say, "stay."
you say i only hear what i want to.
one of my all time favourites song..
i'm so in love with this song,
remind me of lots of memories with josh...
ermmm,not good memories tho hehs...
but well,
i so over everythin we had...
but once in a blue moon,i do miss him..
how to put it,
lik out of sudden,his name just ring across my mind..
silly gal...haha...
nicko,u are my soulmate...
thanks for everythin last noitz...
we are lik miles apart,
but u always tel me how much i meant to u...
somehow,i cant cry when i wish i can...
he makes me feel so comfortable and i did...yes,cried..
we were chattin last noitz,
suddenly told him tat i feel lik cryin now,feel very furked up...
and he was lik why dear,wads wrong?
its hard to say out wads wrong nicko,i dunnoe...
and i started to cry,
while i'm cryin,i asked him to lend me his shoulder...
he was lik anytime babay (=
had a good cry FINALLY
might sound funy,i cant cry my heart out at all durin these few weeks...
been tryin,squeezing,thinkin of sad stuffs,but i cant...jus so hard..
but after cryin out last noitz...
feelin so much betta now...
lik totally changed...
no longer feelin so furked up anymore..
straighten lots of thout...
been actin lik a whinin babay these past week...
now now,i'm bac to my usual self...
standin up on my two feets and start movin on (=
alrighty,lovelove for my sweeties...
unDieS feTisHist @|1:35:00 pm|
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies
I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows
knee high
So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me
*am going bac into tat old shell of mine
feel lik i'm losin grip of myself...
feelin so weak and acted lik some fool...
this is so not me...
noone has the slightest idea wad exactly happened in my life right now...
noone...
last noitz had a talk with burgee...
abt turnin into a bi...
asked her to look out for bungs for me
and she said why?wads wrong again?abt guys?
i was lik no,i already lose faith in them...
think gals understan me more...
she was lik,u betta think properly...
but now all the bungs are lik cannot make it...
cos all very short and looks lik girls more than guys *-_-''
she asked me to find one in aussie...lol
she told me alots of passive turnin straight again cos of shortage of cute bungs..
see,how to turn bi?
lol...
so hard to find someone to dote and love me...
u reckon?i do...
for people who hav no idea of passive and all,
refer to da followin:
bi=bisexual,like both sexes
passive=gal who lik bung
bung=gal dress lik guy and acted lik guy
lessy=lesbian la,gals who lik gals
am tired of everythin now...
jus wanna close my eyes and sleep it thru...
really dun wanna wake up anymore...
like so peaceful and free fro feelings,problems...
yeah,am weak...so weak...hate bein so weak..
so now,i jus hate myself more than i love myself...
unDieS feTisHist @|8:09:00 pm|
ASSUME causes me nothin but troubles...
ASSUME= makin an ass out of U and ME...
i'm soooo sorry for assumin things,yes?
forgive me?
didn intend to make u so stressed up for nothin...
wont do it again...
need to control my mood swings or
else nobody will love me anymore...
i will let u do anythin u wan when i'm bac,yes?
but no bitin real hard or i will get bruises very easily...
haha...NO givin up!
if ever i said giv up again,u hav da right to give me a slap...
if u says giv up easily,i will giv ya a punch!
well well,sorry sorry sorry...
had a really weird dream...
dreamt tat i'm bac in sg...
with pot and her fren at the mac nearby my sec sch...
then fro there,walked to the bus-stop to catch a bus bac to her place...
the bus driver sells tickets fro da front window?!
and i took out my student card fro tafe(the sch i'm goin to now)
he allowed me to use it and paid less...
then hop onto da bus,
was sittin with eggy(dunnoe how she got into my dream)
and the scene outside makes me feel lik i'm in sg for real *-_-''
and felt lik somebody was starin at me fro behind..
and da moment i turned,the woman wearin black with funy color eyes was starin at me...
i screamed lik nobody business...
seriously thout she was a ghost...
and suddenly da scene changed...
was at a beach with people i dunnoe...
i was a guy in this scene?!funy,yes!
ermmm,dun really remember wad happened...
ermm,woke up lik 12 plus and had breaky in da noon...
haha...
*hopes everythin is fine...smuack.. (=
unDieS feTisHist @|11:38:00 am|
Monday, October 04, 2004
muee is seriously drivin me crazy!!
with her whinin!!
make me think twice abt gettin my own dog in da future...
been feelin so cranky recently...
guess pms is near (=
lik muee barkin and whinin,drivin me crazy...
and so not in da mood to go out at all...
wads wrong with me???
the more irritated i get,the urge of goin bac to sg is stronger...
i noe i'm not here for holids...
but things tat happened here makes me feel so furked up...
makes me wanna rely on someone...
shitty!
zellbo misses everyone bac home )=
furked up urghhhh...really...
*i reached out for u but u are too far away...beyond my reach...
unDieS feTisHist @|3:51:00 pm|
